"You don't have any idea how much hatred you gave me!" This is always the last statement that crosses to my mind every time I try to fix your mess. I'm so tired of saving you from them, because I thought they just don't understand you. Too bad, it was the other way around. I was the one who didn't understand them and seems like they are true on their words when they describe you to me.
For a long time, even if there were disappointments, I keep on erasing the negativity of you. Hoping that someday and somehow you will mature. I was even looking forward on the possibilities of remoulding you because the first attempt of molding you was a total failure.
Yet, you tend to put away the values equally shown to us by our makers. You defy them because you think you were already "mature" and that you know the "right thing" to do. Can you even hear yourself when you try to answer when you are asked questions like "Why?", "Where did you come from?", & "Who was with you?". All were always defense mechanism. You try to justify your faults and you even try to label us on the bad side.
Let me remind you that you will never exist and survive without them or us. You owe them a lot, far from what you have become and from what you want to be. You have wasted too many emotions, time, effort, and love from the people around you. Sad but you don't notice it every time. You are too selfish and always forget the difference of "need" and "want". Your lying abilities is unending.
You always assume that everything you see from me is right and that you can also do that. And to top that, what you see from others makes you think that it is cool and so you copy it. Does that even make you 'COOL'? Believe me, it doesn't.
If I ask you now, who are you? What will you tell me? That you are this like him and you are this like her? Honestly, you have wasted much of your time. You are spending it copying others to satisfy the "coolness" that you are referring to. You are a nobody or should I say you have become a nobody. You have not done true things for yourself because you are busy minding others and taking lives.
I am so done with you. I can't do anything to help you. I have done my part; the rest is in your hands. The horror and torture that you have brought me magnifies the hate and anger I kept for so long. I regret the day I saved you.
What you have become now, a loser is of your own doing. You fail to listen, consider, mind, analyze, and love. You make use of people's resources for your benefit. You fail to compromise and you fail to choose the right choices. You fail to put limit and you fail to appreciate.
YOU FAIL US ALL!
P.S. “Success builds character, failure reveals it”
